IN SILENCE
by: simplyfascinated
‘I love you’
Three words that contains eight letters
It can easily said by anyone with or without sincerity.
I actually or should I say I REALLY wanted to tell you this magical word…
But…
HOW???
Memories are playing in my mind as I scan the pictures of ours in this little photo album.
You used to be a close friend of mine way back then.
Our first meeting was in front of the church where you accidentally bumped me because you’re in hurry. I was very angry with you at that time because you are the reason why my white dress got dirty and I really wanted to scold you but sad to say I can’t.
I run away because I felt that my tears gonna fall any moment. I heard you shouted ‘SORRY’ but I didn’t bother to look back because of my tears.
I went at the back of the church and there I cried. This is the first dress that my mom bought for me before she died that’s why this dress is really important to me and I don’t want it to be dirty, I just want it to stay like new. After crying I went inside the church and pray.
I thought that will be our first and last meeting but I was wrong…
I decided to visit the orphanage to help them with the kids. It was my happiness. I was playing with the kids when I felt that someone is taking pictures of me and the kids.
We both have surprised eyes when we saw each other. I am the first one who cut it and I just continue playing with the kids. I didn’t bother to talk to you the whole day but I was shocked when you’re the one who first approach me. Even though I’m not comfortable talking to you I’d entertain you. You’ve said sorry and asked me if I already forgiven you, I just give you a smile as my answer.
At first, you didn’t get it because you didn’t hear anything from me. I get the paper and the pen which was in the table and I wrote ‘yes’ as my answer, as you saw the word you smiles.
You told me that you’re just here because you’re part of the program, as a volunteer and you also showed me the pictures you took a while ago and I was surprised when I saw my picture with my white dress.
I look at you and you smiles sweetly, you said that you just accidentally captured it and that explains everything.
And when you ask about me I just wrote my answer in a sheet of paper and showed it to you.
Days passed by and we became close friends and you really loves to take pictures. You even bought a little photo album for the pictures you have printed out and gave it to me.
The photo album contains pictures of us together. Because we consider each other as close friends we have pictures that hugging each other and sweet smile in our faces.
At that time I thought it was only a friendly love but when I heard you talking to someone on your phone and when I asked you who is it of course with the use of paper and then you just mouthed it out and it was a name of a girl.
I am jealous because I saw you smiling while talking to her and I know that there is something with your smile. I don’t want to disturb your conversation that’s why I left you.
After a minute you come to me wearing that smile in your face and I tried my best to smile too. You started the conversation and told me that it was your GIRLFRIEND and you told me that you miss her so much.
I managed not to cry in front of you but I really can’t. I wrote ‘need to go to the comfort room’ in the piece of paper and you just said ‘SURE I just gonna go there and take some pictures’.
I saw my tears falling from my eyes. Why do I need to cry? I already knew that you have a girlfriend and I am ONLY a friend! JUST a friend!
I found out that I am falling in love with you but I managed not to give you any clues because I’m afraid our friendship will end.
As the days passed by, my love for you became deeper and deeper but you don’t have any clues, of course! I’m good in acting! We always took pictures together and put it in the photo album.
I am happy even though you can’t give love in return because your heart was already owned by someone else. I’m just thankful that I met you and I first experience falling in love with you.
The day that you need to leave came so fast. I’d prepared for this day but I can’t control myself from crying and I hugged you because I know this will be the last time we’ll saw each other.
We bid goodbyes and for the last time I hugged you.
Goodbye and thank you!
Thank you for making me bringing the happiness that I’ll treasure in my entire life
and…
Goodbye my LOVE!
I just want to shout it out loud that I LOVE YOU for the last time but a MUTE like me can never do that!
I can only WRITE it on a piece of paper but can never TELL it directly to you!
I really wanted to tell you these feelings of mine but because of many reasons that became our barriers this remain IN SILENCE.
12:43 am
02/23/12
